so yeah i havent written in like 2 months....sorry to all the avid lauren livejournal readers. so not to much new. been really busy with school and alpha xi delta. which im now an active member. love all of my sisters. TFJ i love you all. thanks for such an amazing semester so far. you all are so amazing and have helped me grow into such a better person. cant wait to live in the house with you next year.

hmm...other new stuff. well lets see. dating someone. i think. kind of a crazy situation. we have "been together" for almost a month. really excited about that one. except its been crazy because we have both been really really really really busy so like its just hard to see eachother.  whatever. like i mean who cares right.

umm schools over in like 5 weeks. this year has totally flown by. and i am soo super psyced that i went away to school. learned alot about myself and was able to grow into such a better person. strongly recommend going away. alright well im out before i pass out from lack of sleep. love you lots.
Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: howie day...collide

i dont even know what to anymore. like there are sooo many issues that have come up lately that i dont even know what to think about. it all. things are just sooo insane with things at home.  like there are definately times where i could just forget all and take july 1st back.  maybe i wouldnt of gone to the fireworks or of just not spent the night at lauras.  i woul of missed out on some amazing times but at least now i wouldnt be having to deal with the drama that always follows. cause quite frankly i cant deal with it anymore. i am sooo sick of people constantly fighting and being stuck in the middle of a situation that i am 150 miles away from 90% of the time.  its absolutly insane. as i look forward to the summer, knowing my entire semester at school is COMPLETELY booked and is going to FLY by, i also know that it wont be anything compared to summer 04. and the thought of that completely sucks.  i know there are going to be no fireworks as the four of us. no hanging out at the lake all day with my ninjas.  no charlie and the chocolate factory in downtown rochester.  no more trips to taco bell on dixie.  no more bonfires.  no more walks down the scary dirt road.  no more laying under the stars just talking.  no more 2 on 2 volleyball in the pool.  no more insane dairy queen runs.  no more nights in watching a movie. no more poker nights.  no more hanging out til 3 in the morning.  no more blue collar.  no more 5 ninjas.  no more going the wrong way on gratiot.  no more thomas/scott.  no more anything.  its all gone.  it came and went in the blink of an eye.  sure we have all changed but its hard to imagine that one certain person can completely tear apart strong friendships.  funny how life works.  and i am sure that i am gonna be told i am too dramatic and that i need to chill out, but in all seriousness....i cant. i dont want to think of the fact that i have lost one of the people that i became so close to this summer.  they know who they are, and for all i know may be reading this right now.  funny how things like that work out.  who even knows how all of this started.  but i think we all know the way its going to end.  i dont know how to try to salvage anything anymore.  i dont think i can.  all i know is that i cant say i didnt try. because God knows i did and still want to.  but i am so lost on where to even try to start that.  so i guess this is my formal goodbye.  i hope that one day, before we are all old and on our deathbeds, that we are all able to talk once more.  and then maybe try to figure out what went wrong and all wish that we could of done something to stop it.  i hope and pray that its sooner than later.  maybe to try to salvage the bits and pieces of what is left of one of the most memorible friendships i have ever had.  maybe people will realize that their actions speak louder than words.  maybe.  i believe that everything happens for a reason.  there is a reason we all became so close in a few short months.  there is a reason this is all going on now.  we are being tested to see how strong our friendships truely are.  we are supposed to voer come this with a better realization of what we mean to eachother.  we are supposed to strenthen our friendships.  but it takes the willingness of all members for this to work.  as of right now, it seems like an impossible feat.  and i cant let this affect my everyday life.  i cant sit here 150 miles away and worry about what is going to happen at home.  im sick of doing that.  im sick of not knowing how to solve things and wondering why i cant make everyone happy.  im sick of constantly being reminded of how we are tearing ourselves apart by this.  i just want things to be normal. is that really so much to ask for?  why cant people forgive or even listen to eachother for once? or at the VERY least be civil to one another? does it really hurt your pride that much to do that for a friendship? and quite possibly the stongest friendships you have ever had? i guess i dont understand and its begining to look like i never will. 

laur

( im falling into memories of you, things we used to do.... )
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: yellowcard...one year, six months

so by now i am sure you know that i  had to go home over the past weekend to have some bloodwork done to be tested for diabetes. and i am happy to say that the results on that are negative. but they did find something else. i have something called hypothyroid and that i have too high of calcium...not to sure exactly.  all i know is that my thyroid doesnt produce like any hormones so i have like no energy.  which is why i am constantly sleeping and always cold and that my metabolism doesnt like exist anymore. and the too high of calcium can make me get kidney stones and then pull calcium out of my bones so they can break easier. kinda sucks. so i have to go on some medication for like the rest of my life but i mean at least i can still eat my candy and stuff...yes as i am sitting here i am drinking some cherry coke den pop...its like 44oz. haha! so i have to go home in llike 3 weeks and have some more blood work done. yes i am soo looking forward to passing out again! sweet! oh well. otherwise the weekend was a blast. me and laura saw meet the fockers and went to dinner on friday night. saturday ran some errands called charlie, who woke up at 3pm. laura spent the night and charlie came over and we watched most of napoleon dynomite and bad santa and played attack eachother. we all chilled til like 3ish. went to bed around 4 and then me and laura went to church on sunday. really good service. met up with niki there and then went to lunch after. came home chilled and then went out to caribou with laura that night. had a major discussion and came home and looked at bathing suits on victoria secrets. today came back to school. bout it. alright...im out yo! love you lots.

laur

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Current Mood: tired
Current Music: ryan cabrera...true

well...after on hell of a scary weekend, no i didnt do anything bad! i finally get to know what is wrong with me.  my blood test is on friday morning at 9:45. im really scared. like i know the worst that can happen right now is that i will have diabetes and will need to be on insulin for the rest of my life, but it is life changing and can be life threatening.  like i think it would just be really hard to do because i am away at school and it would be really hard to eat the way that i need to eat. oh well you gotta do what you gotta do right. when life throws you curves, you just gotta them them in stride. i can just thank God that i have my family and friends. thank you so much you guys for all of your support these past couple of days. it has meant the world to me. i love you all!

blondie

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Current Mood: scared
Current Music: david crowder band....obsession

blah i have ANOTHER bladder infection. this is 3 in like 6 months. ridicilous!!!! it freaking sucks butt. whatever tho. kinda sucks having to get up at 9am on a SATURDAY to go to sindicuse health center. but i mean at least i will get better and can auctually go out and chill and whatnot. because of this i just dont feel like going out at all. what sucks tho is that i have to get a blood test when i go home because i might be developing diabetes. i mean its possible. it runs like mad through my family. it would just totally suck tho if i had it. whatev..i am done being a bia and rambling about how sick i feel. GRR!

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so i know it has been a long time with no update. sorry to all of you avid laurens livejournal readers. i was at home and really didnt have to much time to update let alone go online. so anyways to start off my break i came home dec. 9th or something like that. chillaxed with my laura and just was so super psyced about having my own bathroom and my own room and being home in general. went out to rickys the saturday after i got home. chilled with laura, ricky and charlie. ran an errand with charlie and laura. got totally lost on Rochester Road. but hey at least i didnt go northbound on southbound... ::::cough:::charlie:::cough. went to rickys hockey game. saw a psyco on the loose.  and then we got ditched so we got pizza and a movie and chillaxed at my house. got biatched out and biatched at someone else. thanks charlie for everything. i dont know what i would do without you. also later that week i went to charlie's dorm and met his friend from the army. made a soft sauce comment that i dont think i will ever be allowed to live down. its all good tho. thats what happens when you are a blonde. wed. i went to new community with charlie and laura. i saw my cell phone buddy ms. niki lipsky!!!!! it was an amazing service that i desperately needed. went to lauras after and watched bourne supremacy. it was really good. then chatted with charlie about a few things that we have all had to deal with. "is it bad to leave christmas lights on for 4 days straight?" lauras answer: "yeah it will run up your phone bill!!!" saturday laura and jules came over to my house. got a call from ricky...kinda randomness. well things going the way they did we ended up going out to rickys. it was a ninja reunion. aww! in my pink t! and a purple thong. jules had to leave after we got the movie so we chilled and watched blue collar 2. left there around 1:30 and then got a flat tire on my way home. that sucked butt. the next day i had my wesoloski family christmas. it was good. talked to my cousin and watched the lions make an ass of themselves and completely blow a football game. surprise surprise!!! monday. went to spanos and me and laura learned how to play texas hold em. i lost a buck to charlie!!! it was all good tho. for the most part except being barked at the entire night. not cool. not cool at all!!!! talked to charlie and listened to him have an amusing time with the gas station lady! LMAO! tuesday my laura left me for hawaii! it was sad!!! so me and tara went out to spanos. played some poker. talked to justin. watched some gay national lampoon movie that we had to shut off. it was terrible. "I call cuddle with lauren!!" then we went downstairs and played some more poker. and believe it or not i won! yeah me i won!!! woo hoo!!!! x-mas eve i had the family over for christmas. ate way t much food and watched a christmas story with the family. it was nice just to chillax with them. christmas day went to my grandparents for dinner. watched the pistons pacers game and the miami lakers game on tv. monday. i woke up sick as a dog but charlie still came over and we watched collateral. it was a really good movie. i totally recommend it to everyone.  ended up going to bed at 5 anda sleeping til like 11 that night. and then slept from 2 til 11:30 on tuesday. i was pretty much out of it until like saturday night. the flu sucks. dont recommend that one to anyone.

now for my past weekend. saturday my laura came home and we decided to hit up great lakes and go SHOPPING!!! kept trying to call charlie to see what he was up to. came back to my house and finally got a hold of cb! he came over and we watched the rose bowl and my mom made some turkey and mashed potatoes for like all the 10 people that were there. it was pretty cool. me, laura, and charlie stole the couch from kev and his friends. me and LA went to go to caribou and charlie fell asleep at my house. it was amusing. watched a total heartbreaker of a football game and then went to blockbuster to get anchorman. well 3 blockbusters. it would of only been 2 if i listen to charlie....i know i know. so we went to lauras house and "watched the movie" as we played attack eachother. charlie was SOL cause he got stuck in the middle. haha sucks to be you. me and charlie left after the movie cause it was freezing rain out. nastyness. sunday me and my momma spent 2 hours trying to fix my puter. it sucked ass. laura called and said she had tickets to the pistons game so i was like HECK YEAH! so i rushed home. took stuff to terris and then rushed back home got ready in "10 minutes" and then left for the game with charlie, laura, and jules. BLONDES GOTTA STAY TOGETHER!!!! saw an adams reunion. chilled talked and watched the game. got made fun of by charlie about darko. we left and went to OUTBACK where we had a bushel of laughs. our waiter was straight out of OFFICE SPACE. "can i get french onion soup without the onions?" "she only has 6 pieces of flare" "the cruton is as big as the chicken" many many more. so after that we came back to my house and watched office space and played attack charlie...which turned into touch laurens feet or stick charlies feet in laurens face. then we watched some real live dodgeball on TV. quite possibly the funniest thing i have eve seen. then we...well me and charlie watched drumline while laura and jules chatted it up. we all said our goodbyes cause i had to come back to school today. it was super sad but i know i will see them in like 10 days. i honestly have no idea what i would do without those 3. i love you guys more than you will ever know. but charlie....CHIEF IS SOOOOOOOOO MY WORD!!!!!!!!!!!

so that was my break. and because that was forever and a day long and i doubt you are still reading i am gonna kick it. love you lots.

lauren

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oh and i got in my sorority! alpha xi delta....alpha episilion. baby xi's what? im so excited. its gonna be a blast and a half cause we are just totally awesome like that. winter class 05! all 4 of us!

other news, classes are over. i have 3 finals next week. so not psyced...at all. but thursday i get to be home kinda early. my art exam that was supposed to be at 2:45 got cancelled! yeah buddy what?!?! so i get to leave at like 11:30 or so. me and terri get to dance in the car to our christmas songs! yeah yeah yeah! and then i will be home for like 3 and a half weeks. and i get to see my ninjas which is totally awesome! ok ya'll im out. love you lots.

laur

ALPHA XI DELTA!!!

oh my word....what a weekend lemme tell you that. tuesday, i came home. i didnt have class which freaking rocked my socks off. we got home in like 2 hours and 15 minutes....during rush hour! go figure. so me and terri got back to my house and made some boscos and charlie billy and laura came over.  chatted....i think me and terri scared charlie a bit because there are 2 of us. later we went to rickys and watched the grinch. laura spent the night and we had a confession night. it was interesting but much appreciated.  wednesday got up and did some errands. went to the bank and saw josh there. chatted and decided we are gonna meet for coffee when we are both home again.  got harry potter and came home and made some chocolate chip cookies!! YUM!!!! it snowed like a mother out so laura came over and we watched shrek 2.  "cha-cha-charlie fleece" lol. thursday i got up and got ready then went to my cousins house for dinner. we had some super interesting convos about this my parents and her parents did when they were younger. i thought i was gonna pee my pants. then we ate. drove home and got dropped off at rickys. we watched dicky roberts. "NUCKING FUTS!" came home and chilled and went to bed.  friday i packed and went to run some errands before we went to holland.  did some homework on the way there and whatnot.  ABBY GOWMAN is my hero! got there and had the run-in with "The Elevator Whores" they were like laying on the floor of the elevator looking for boys. they were nasty. they had some jacked up teeth and buuuh ness. so we went to sagatuck for some grub and came back and went to the game.  they won 4-2 and came back to the hotel and chilled with abby, brad and justin.  that was awesome...im really glad i got to know justin better. we finally called it quits at like 3. got up at like 9 on saturday morning and ate some food. went shopping with my mom and the emerys. came back laid down and worked on some homework cause i have a ton to do this week with 3 exams, a project and rush! so we went to the boys game, they lost 2-3. it was a bummer and a half. the refs were terrible. so after the team went out for dinner. i suffered through that one and me and abby bolted outta there. the elevator whores ended up coming on the floor. NASTY! then we are chilled in the hall and threw a ball at eachother. yeah we are that dumb. so then we went to their next game. t.e.w's showed up. why no one knows. but the boys won 3-0. so they made it to the semi-finals. we went back to the hotel and partied it up. had some interesting convos and chilled out there til like 3:30 in the morning. went to bed and got up at 8. holy moly i know. so we packed up the car and then went to the semi game. the refs were terrible yet again and the boys lose 2-0. but some of these kids were like 18...and they are 14 and 15. so i thought they did an awesome job. then we came back to k-zoo and went to BURDICKS with the marckel's. quite entertaining. came back to the dorm and did a ton of homework and talked to some people. kinda in a bad mood now because some people act like idiots but whateve. now i am out like a fat kid running to first. love you.

laur

holy cow...its been a while my friend. i think last time i wrote was after i was home for halloween. woah buddy! well anyways, things are going dec around good old WMU campus!  its colder than a walk in freezer out here, but still no snow. i will let you know when we get some.  just keep hoping!!! so classes are coming to an end..thank goodness! next tuesday i get to come home for thanksgiving and then 2 weeks later i come home for 3 weeks for christmas. me and terri are soooo in the holiday spirit...and i know it isnt even thanksgiving. but we are already scoping out presents and hall decorations and watching christmas movies and listening to christmas music, awesome i know. i got some light last weekend and totally wacked my head on the bottom of my loft while putting them out. it hurt like a mother. i am soo super psyced for next week too! i only have classes on monday!!!! then tuesday i get to come home! and everything is perfect right now. life my family is perfect, my friends are perfect....well except fo the fact that charlie had to shave his head! i'll admit im a little scured of that one! lol love ya charlie! 5 days off of school im soooo excited! like ok ricky....we are totally making you watch the goonies! i dont care what you say! and we are pulling an all nighter! and next week i get to go to new community and see everyone! im sooo super psyced! like woah! ok well im off to bed i think! love you lots! and see you sooN!

laur

first of all...i want to say that i love my ricky, my laura and my charlie so super mucho! thanks for everything this past weekend!!! i came home wednesday night after class, my mommy came and picked me up. i got to d rive my baby all the way home. it was amazing. we stopped for dinner and really had a lot of time to catch up on everything. she found out she didnt have to work on thursday so that was cool. got home and upacked and talked to my brother and my daddy. around 9:15 laura and ricky stopped by.  got HUGE hugs from both of them and we chatted for a while. then after they left i decided to watch some HP and go to bed...at 10:30 it was amazing.  slept til 10:30 on thursday and then ran some errands with my mommy. went to the bank and the city hall. got my voting done. then we went and did some shopping and got stuff to make cookies. yes me and my mom made cookies and watched general hospital. ate some majorly good dinner. then went to pick up ricky and went to kev's hockey game. he played really good. then dropped ricky off at home after because he had school the next day! lol! love you ricky! came home talked online and then went to bed. FRIDAY...slept til like noon and then laid around the house. it was really nice to do that for once. did some more errands and finished my laundry. met laura up at ricky and charlies' hockey game. and watched the boys win.  they werent allowed to totally blow them out tho...lol! after that me and laura and ricky went ack to laura's house and ate some pizza and carved pumpkins. well me and laura scooped the goop out and ricky watched. it was fun. then we decided it was time to watch white chicks. it was freaking halarious! like woah! i got a massage from ricky because i was falling asleep on the couch! thanks ricky I owe you...next time i promise.  then i left and came home and talked a bit then attempted to watch some HP again...and fell asleep.  Saturday i spent some time with the family and hung out around the house. me and kevin went to best buy and i got the OC season 1. its amazing...i love the OC. laura knows what i am talking about. ADAM BRODY...yeah buddy!! then i came home and ate dinner then picked up laura then headed to ricky's powerless house. got there at the end of an intense game of poker. charlie you know me and laura are good luck charms!! then we attempeted to watch the UofM game but i think the t.v. could of given anyone a seizure. we decided to leave for taco bell. interesting to say the least. ricky and charlie were searching through my yearbook and reading all of the comments. thanks guys. so me and laura turned up the radio. got to taco bell and between 3 boys and a girl they managed to spend 27 bucks. sick. so we got back and the generator was outta gas so we decided to listen to the game via cell phones as they ate in the dark. then we jumped in our cars and listened to the game. luckly, after the 1st OT ricky's neighboor let us come over and watch. UofM won!! then we headed out to their game. stoner boy allan showed up. me and laura got beyond pissed. he was acting like an idiot and just being mean. i yelled at him alot. it didnt work. so after the game, we were all in the parking lot...oh charlie likes boys now...woo hoo rochester! allan pissed me off somemore and so i like pushed him away from me. he finally left. then ricky and charlie had a dance party in the parking lot. it was absolutly halarious. i thought i was gonna pee my pants. at one point i got stuck in the middle of it. then we left and i went home. talked a bit and then fell asleep. sunday i got up early and had a real breakfast and then came back.  all in all it was a good weekend. we had a total blast and a half and i love my 3 ninjas! ya'll are amazing and i thank God you are in my life. I cant wait to see you guys again. thanks for always being there for me. muahs! well i am out like a fat kid running to first. loveyoulongtime.

blondie

so things are a lot better. me and ricky arent fighting anymore..which makes me soo happy. i honestly dont know what i would of done if that would of ended our friendship. love ya ricky! school is going better. i am soooo happy that midterms are over. those were killer...i am now terrified of exams. i am gonna wanna cry. this weekend was pretty fun. Friday night me and terri stayed up late and watched like 4 movies. the day after tomorrow, moulin rogue, and part of sweet home alabama...until at like 2 am we were ready to fall asleep. then i came back to the room and talked online for a little bit...till like 3 am. saturday terri's parents came into town for parent's day. so we got up early and showed them around k-zoo. we went to lunch and then to the AXD house. its awesome. this girl carly is really nice. i dunno. maybe that is something to think about? i dunno if i would really fit as a sorority girl tho..i dont drink. then the rain finally stopped so we decided that we should go to the football game. the student section was completely empty. i was laughing sooo hard because they had to check my purse and i am sure the hot purse checker guy really wanted to see my tampons. we were dying. so we watched the game. we lost of coarse....but what else is new. we had a lot of fun. had some more fun then went to bob evans at like 8:30...got some breakfast for dinner. amazing let me tell you.  came back here exhausted. watched about a half hour of harry potter...we are losers i know. and then i fell asleep in terri's room. came back here and talked then went to bed. today got up early and whatnot...went to say bye to terri's family since i was an honorary member of their family this weekend...we came back here and started to watch centerstage but we both fell asleep. woke up around 3 and decided to clean the room. it was pretty bad and its so nice to have things back together again. i feel sooo clean!!! i even changed my sheet...that took about 40 minutes..cause the loft is like in the cealing. i worked on some homework and whatnot and got someother things done. talked to allision, terri and megan for a bit. we were talking about roommate issues...allison i am so sorry about maggie...thats wrong. then we found out that terri prolly has mono...which mean i am DEAD! sorry guys this weekend i might be on my death bed but we are still hanging out. i promise, i mean cmon you are my ninjas! i love you guys! muahs! and a wink wink! now i think i am gonna go to bed..i gots classes tomorrow! so thanks to charlie fleece....im out like an albino in flashlight tag! i love it!

blondie

IM SO EXCITED!!! I LOVE MY NINJAS!!! I GET TO SEE THEM!!! WE ARE GONNA CHILL!!!! ITS GONNA BE GREAT!!!! I LOVE YOU FOUR...YOU LAURA, RICKY, CHARLIE, AND JULIE ARE AMAZING!!!

ok so this is a uber crappy times a million and one week. i had a exam today that i studied for like no other but the look of that one are bleak. i got in a HUGE...like i mean BIG KHAONA fight yesterday with ricky. left me like in tears for hours and i am kinda thinking i dont wanna come home next weekend maybe, or if i do just chill with my parents the entire time. i dunno yet. we are ok i guess but i am still really hurt by some of the things he brought up that i have a really hard time dealing with almost 2 years later. no one is gonna be here this weekend. laura cant come visit me this weekend because she has to stay at home with her brother and sister. i think i am getting sick...again. 5 girls on my floor have the flu...lovely i know. it has been cloudy and rainy for the past week. my ankle is throbbing again...and i dont know why. my uncle sent me an e-mail today telling me he is worried about me. we hardly ever talk anyways. i feel like i have lost contact with people who were close to me...you know who you are. i bombed my lab midterm. its almost halloween...i really dont like halloween very much. and to top it all off...i dont know what to do about anything anymore. i feel like i cant tell certain people things anymore and that everyone at home is just going on as i am slowly drifting out of the picture. even writing this stupid thing is making me cry. i dont know what to do when i am 150 miles away from everything i have ever known. i just want things to be the way they were before. and then freeze time. i feel like a complete moron right now and i dont even know why! i just wanna go and sit with my mom and talk to her for hours. she knows how to make everything alright. i hurt so bad on the inside and i dont know why anymore. i let things build up and build up until it all boils over like an emotional...well boil over... i just cant take it anymore and it freaking sucks that i can let it all out. i want to so bad but i dont know how. all i ever freaking do anymore is put on a happy face and stand there for people, prolly letting them walk all over me at times too. i know where i want to go and who i want to be but it is so hard. i know i dont sucomb to peer pressure but i can slowly feel it pulling at me. and i dont want it to! i need some help. God, show me where to go! i am so lost and i need You to help me find my way.

laur

so we have got some major inside jokes with the ninjas and what not.  i was really really bored and dont feel like studying at all. so here we go

AUGUST 1st, "i can love you long time",  taco bell adventures, scary old man masks, ant in the pants, "ok so the earth is round...", volleyball, charlie and the chocolate factory, "its a UFO!...no its a plane...", bowling, bowling hitler...yes sir!, dancing in the street at 12:30am, the park, FULL MOON TONIGHT!, Double D B, leutenant anderson, sargent murphy, blondie, rochester, the family jules, THOMAS!, deer crossing, the manly girls, pooor bunny, bonfires by the lake, jetskiing and getting thrown off, trips to dairy queen, EDGE, medusa, free baller, "i have seen fishing line thicker than that!", the creepy renesance people, "ya'll are mean!", 5...6..7...8, tping a certain someones house, movie nights, south park and viva la bam til 3:30 in the morning, late nights, late night phone calls, almost peeing our pants on the deck, THE 5 NINJAS!, you just got punked, blue collar comedy tour, things that make you go buuuh, go around, the scary looking thing crawling up the tree, the bandicoot (murphy and anderson...has it ever been found???), no talking during the movie rule...yeah right!, the 2 creepy guys on the girls team for volleyball, little banana boy, the burger king adventure...they just like the girls better boys, THE TALK!, "charlie fleece is soo hott!", freezing on the dock....pile up!, they are MINE!!!!!,

oh gosh i am sure there are prolly millions and millions more, but i need to get back to some studying cause of MIDTERMS...they are gonna be the death of me! i promise you on that one. to my ninjas...i cant wait to see ya'll in a few weeks, i miss you guys more than you could ever know. love you long time.

blondie

tonight was just freaking halarious. went to class during the day...only one...yeah! and then decided to take a 3 hour nap...lol i am amazing i know. so tonight they had belly dancing downstairs...well we decided we just wanted to see what it was all about. so we watched. it was halarious.so me and terri came back here and were completely hyper. it was freaking insane. we were dancing around the room and acting like complete idiots. charlie thought we were drunk. I SWEAR on my LIFE we WERENT. it was fun. they we chatted and got kicked offline cause it is gay like that so we decided to wathc the prince and me. i am sooo mad at the way it ended. so we bellydanced some more and now i am exhausted so i am going to bed. love you long time. laur

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Current Music: Over and Over...Nelly Feat. Tim McGraw

quote of the weekend: "I CAN LOVE YOU LONG TIME!!!"

ok so this weekend was a blast and a half. came home friday on the train with megan. this random guy in the train station was talking about when he saw someone get attacked by 7 little white poodles. i was trying hard core not to laugh. it was hard to tho. well the train ride was interesting to say the least.  it was forever and a day long and we stopped in the middle of no where. we also we through the big D.  i dunno i dont think i am gonna be taking the train for a while. at least not by myself. so edventually i found my car  when we arrived in royal oak. oh i missed my baby. so we went back to my house and meg had to do some stuff online for school. so we did that and got ready. chowed some pizza and then went to maggie moos at the village. strawberry ice cream with chocolate flakes is amazing times 10. then we were off the the adams game. chilled and saw a ton of people which was really cool.  altie came over and talked to us for a bit. then i got a call from ricky saying charlie was gonna chill with us. so we met him and the padres at montanas and then went to rdawgs. like 2 minutes later charles showed up. we messed around and did nothing...well talked and cracked up and made fun of me....for like an hour. then we decided to watch a movie. BLUE COLLAR!!! we all talked and chilled and had a total blast and a half.  then it was time for conan. i was falling asleep on the couch but it was all good. so after we left. ricky and charlie tried scaring us and running out at the car again....boys. saturday me and meg got up at like noon then chilled. we looked for apartments for a while then got ready and i took her to GLC. we did some damage....well i did but it was SALE DAMAGE. i got a bandaid for a skirt as my mom says. but it was 7 bucks. i couldnt pass it up. so we came back and had a home cooked meal. chicken and potatoes ad salad. it was tasty. took pics with kevin for homecoming then got laura and went to rickys...again. we decided to get some pizza and a movie. well i have/had major ADD and i couldnt sit there at all.  so we decided to bundle up and go on the dock. we were gonna go on the paddle boat but the paddle parts were under water and no one was gonna paddle barefoot. so we all laid on the dock and looked at the stars and chatted. we were like laying on top of eachother to keep warm. at one point i had megan, charlie, and ricky all on me. charlie was holding ricky up for the most part so i wouldnt die. thanks charlie love you long time.  lol. so we went back inside and chilled for a while. charlie had us ready to pee our pants. he took the old man mask and tied his shirt up and was running around. then him and ricky were sumo wrestlers. i was dying. well at like 1:30 we left. got home and kept getting calls from ricky and charlie. i was soo tired. and they kept calling til 3am. i was prolly the biggest bia ever. oh well love you long time boys. so today...sunday....got up and got crapola ready to go back to school. we left around 1:30 and stopped at costco. didnt get anything...that may be a first. then we headed back a different way. it was cool. got back and went to burdicks with the family, meg, and terri. came back here and chilled with T. attempted to do some homework. realized i forgot all my cds a home...i am sooo mad. then talked to laura and ricky. chilled with terri somemore and talked to charlie for like half an hour. you really may wanna go get your arm looked at hun. then decided to go to bed. well now i cant sleep. and i am writing in this thingy about my weekend. i love my ninjas and i am soo super glad they are in my life and care about me. cause lord knows i care about them soo super mucho. i am coming home at the end of the month so we better be prepared to have some fun. well i am out like a fat kid running to first. LOVE YOU LONG TIME.

blondie

ok so the earth is round....and the austrailians were like WTF mate....and the french were like but i am le tired. ok so...got that out. well this week has been super crazy. i had a huge exam on wednesday that well i dont think it went that well. today i had another exam and i finished really soon and did really good. i have been done with class since 10 this morning. but i really havent gotten to much accomplished. oh well, what can i say? so tomorrow i am going to class then coming home on the train with megan. it should be interesting. then we are going to the homecoming game then going to rickys prolly. i am so super excited for that one. i miss my friends...even if last weekend did suck. but a mr. charles fleece isnt hanging out with us tomorrow...he is too good for us. jk jk you know i love ya! so this weekend should be fun. i get to show megan around and chill out to the max. i am sooo outta it and it kinda is crazy like woah! i am getting a good night sleep tonight cause this weekend is gonna be a partay to the max weekend. i love it. ok well thats about all that is going on. so i think i am out like a fat kid running to first. love you lots.

blondie

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Current Mood: beddy bye
Current Music: Britney...My Perrogetive

I dunno even where to start. This past weekend was kinda one that made me wish i didnt go home. i mean dont get me wrong, i love my family and my friends. but i really didnt get to see much of my family and the whole friend situation was completely weird. friday was just a bad day. i ended up not getting home til almost 6. the haeners drove me home and my family picked me up from there. on the way home my car was makin weird noises, and then realized that it was my breaks going out. so that sucked. i had to drive the tahoe. well me and laura went out to dinner with my family. rushed through eatting and went with laura to ricky and charlies hockey game. we sat with his mom and his nephew hunter. he is so cute.  then we went back to rickys house. charlie was being a little weird so that kinda sucked. we all watched starsky and hutch. that was pretty coolio. then laura got a scary voicemail, and we all were pretty freaked out. this was at 1am and laura needed to be home at 1:20. well we ended up leaving at 1:40. we made the boys walk us to the car, ricky had two ice skates and charlie had a baseball bat. charlie then thought it was halarious to run out towards the car at us. me and laura screamed at the top of our lungs with the windows up and the music on. i thought i was gonna have a heartattack. it was sooo scarry! so we finally made it home around 2. i talked to charlie some more then went to bed. saturday i got up early and got my haircut. you cant really tell tho. then came home and went to the mall with laura. bought 2 sweaters for like 20 bucks a piece.i was sweet. then we went out to rickys and chilled. got pretty mad like right after i got there cause we got punked. so charlie was being anti-social and then matt (dank the tank) came over. we talked and made fun of ricky and charlie who decided o go out on the jetskis...it was 65 degrees outside. then charlie decided he didnt want to hang out with us and him and matt totally left. so we were on the way to my house and i was following ricky. well he was passing someone and for once there was a cop on clarkston road and ricky got pulled over. he didnt get a ticket but his mom made him come home. so we were a gorup of 5 and now were down to 2. so me and laura were pretty upset and we ordered a lg. pizza, breadsticks, and rented empire records. then had a huge pity party. she got in a huge fight with her mom and that just wasnt good. i took her home around 12:30. sunday i got up and did somethings i needed to do around the house and got ready to go back to school. went to the marckels, and rode back with justin. it was cool. we talked alot. i am supposed to give him a call later this week and we may hang out. got my stuff together and started working on studying for stupid geology. i hate that class with a burning passion. like i wanna scream.

i dunno, now that i think about it the weekend did suck, but i am excited to come home this weekend too. i get to see julie and a ton of other people. i guess things are ok now so thats pretty cool. i just hope that everything is in the past and that next weekend  will be 10million times better. i just want everything to be normal. and by the look of things i am thinking that it is...well back to studying

love you lots,

laur

I love my life. everything is perfect. perfect weather, perfect school for me, perfect family, perfect friends, perfect ninjas, PERFECT!  Life is good and I am so thankful for everything i have. I love life! I LOVE GOD! All of the drama that was in this perfect summer has dissappeared. the drama from the past 3 weeks has gone. and i am so happy. ricky and laura came to visit me today and  totally realized that i love my friends. they are a strong point in my life and because of all of my ninjas...i am such a better person than i was when the summer started.  to tell ya'll the truth. without you guys i would probably be a completely different person here. i wold probably be drinking and going out all the time. but you guys made me realize thats wrong and i dont need it to have fun. plus, i think God put you in my life because He knew that you would help me through the struggles ahead. i knew it was ahead of me and you 4 are the answers  to my prayers. just now i got a call to go down to the student ghetto and party, but i have to much to do, so i turned it down.  I am so proud of myself for being able to not be pressured into things i dont wanna do. i am finally happy with who i am and who i will become. it sounds corney but it is so true. i have never in my life been as happy with myself as i am now. i used to worry about what everyone thought of me and try to fit in with people so i would be liked by the "popular" kids. but now i really dont care. like me for me. its kinda pathetic that it took me 18 years to realize that. but i am gonna thank God that i did. I was so lost but now He has shown me the right path.  I love my life. it may not be the most exciting in the world, but it is to me. i love it. i love God, i love my family, i love my ninjas, i love everything and everyone who has helped me grow so much in these past 4 months. i love you all and hope that you will always be there for me. may nothing ever tear us apart. i love you so much. words do not describe the love that i feel inside.

blondie

ok so i am not so depressed so here are things that i love....

1. my ninjas
2. my laura
3. my ricky
4. my julie
5. my charlie
6. my tara
7. my family
8. my doggie...aww i miss them all sooo mucho
9. dancing....i dont feel like a fat cow then
10. driving my car...even though its ugly...i still love it
11. summer 04...best summer ever made
12. sleepovers with late night girl talk
13. pool table talk
14. going on vacation
15. my cruise...woop woop laura
16. getting phone calls from my ninjas
17. talking to my mommy
18. going shopping...even better when i dont have to pay :)
19. talking in general
20. hanging out with friends
21. not having a curfew..thats really really really really nice
22. attempting to play volleyball...even tho i suck
23. listening to my music
24. chilling by the lake
25. looking at the stars with my ninjas
26. TACO BELL ADVENTURES...we are doing one when i come home in october....i promise
27. jetskiing...except when charlie and ricky fling me off!
28. MOVIE NIGHTS...never a dull moment
29. surprize parties...
30. late night bonfires....not with manly girls tho...hi to larry and joe!
31. meeting awesome new people at school
32. having dance parties in dorm rooms...lol
33. instant messenger
34. love spell body spray
35. tanning...in the middle of september
36. HOME COOKED MEALS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
37. being a blonde...dumb but i love it
38. my house in rochester
39. watching the real world..

prolly a lot more but i am kinda sick of this so i think i am done. love you lots.

blondie

I HATE THIS...

1. i hate having these short days with nothing to do
2. i hate thinking about home all the time
3. i hate that you dont feel like i feel
4. i hate how its weird to talk to you
5. i hate how everyone is in rochester area, and i am across the state
6. i hate seeing my mom cry when i leave
7. i hate not having my own room
8. i hate sharing a bathroom
9. i hate that everyone up here drinks
10. i hate being pressured to drink
11. i hate not knowing when i am coming home
12. i hate not knowing how i am gonna get home
13. i hate that things are changing
14. i hate how things are staying the same
15. i hate how i miss everyone
16. i hate how everyone misses me
17. i hate some some people dont miss me
18. i hate not knowing the future
19. i hate clinging to the past
20. i hate friday classes
21. i hate being treated like an idiot
22. i hate not having my ninjas
23. i hate how people smoke right next to the door
24. i hate tomatoes
25. i hate feeling different when i go home
26. i hate how i miss the summer
27. i hate not having bonfires
28. i hate not having movie nights at the spanos
29. i hate not having taco bell adventures on dixie anymore
30. i hate not seeing my ricky
31. i hate not seeing my laura
32. i hate not seeing my julie
33. i hate not seeing my charlie
34. i hate feeling like this
35. i hate writing my feelings down

( just take the pain away... )
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: awake...by dashboard confessional